Category Archives: National Poetry Month

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I swear that when I’m going through my day, I think of this or that and then I think, “I can blog about that.” And then, when I get here and am staring at the screen, I just go blank.

On Friday, April 13th, I actually went out to celebrate my friend Joey’s birthday (which is actually Friday). Her boyfriend had organized some bowling. I thought that sounded fun, and even though Han was working, he encouraged me to go. So I headed downtown and was having fun bowling, when suddenly, Matt (Joey’s boyfriend), goes behind Joey who was turning around after bowling a frame and got down on one knee and asked her to marry him! We were all shocked! It was so beautiful and sweet. I was so sad Han had missed it, but I learned that Matt had told him about it the day before and asked him to be their officiant when tye the knot. Yay!

The weekend was stormy so a work volunteer event was cancelled and I did basically nothing. It was pretty great. I think I was in my pajamas until well into the afternoon. I was lazy and loving it, doing my best to not feel guilty about it. That night, Han conducted a songwriting workshop so I had some alone time. Again, was not productive at all, and that was okay.

On Sunday, the Acoustic Duo and I went over to Poway for a short 1/2 hour set to promote a big show coming up in September. It was a gorgeous day and it was nice to be outside. Afterward, Han & I had some lunch, took naps, and lounged about until his client for the afternoon showed up. I used the time to get the grocery list together and go shopping.

This week has been the basic same routine: work, home, dinner, work, sleep. Tonight, D went to a show at her old school and Han has rehearsal. I worked already, and still have a bit of time before Han gets home.

Of course, the blankness also applies to the poem world so nothing original, but this poem was the poem of the day from poets.org and I just loved it.

Pretty Polly
by Jane Springer

Who made the banjo sad & wrong?
Who made the luckless girl & hell bound boy?
Who made the ballad? The one, I mean,
where lovers gallop down mountain brush as though in love—
where hooves break ground to blood earth scent.
Who gave the boy swift words to woo the girl from home,
& the girl too pretty to leave alone? He locks one arm
beneath her breasts as they ride on —maybe her apron comes
undone & falls to a ditch of black-eyed susans. Maybe
she dreams the clouds are so much flour spilt on heaven’s table.

I’ve run the dark county of the heart this music comes from—but
I don’t know where to hammer-on or to drop a thumb to the
haunted string that sets the story straight: All night Willie’s dug
on Polly’s grave with a silver spade & every creek they cross
makes one last splash. Though flocks of swallows loom— the one
hung in cedar now will score the girl’s last thrill. Tell
me, why do I love this sawmill-tuned melancholy song
& thud of knuckles darkening the banjo face?
Tell me how to erase the ancient, violent beauty
in the devil of not loving what we love.

a girl I know

a girl I know

When she closes her eyes
She sees sun spots
That bloom into sunflowers

She tilts her head back
And looks up to tall green stalks
Brown centers wink at her

When she opens her eyes
The clouds are scattered
Like buckshot across the sky

Deep down she believes
She’s not particularly good at anything
But sometimes she surprises herself

Water is metallic in her mouth
So she thinks she is losing her humanity
She cries at confrontation & sappy movies so we know she isn’t

She is not winsome or light
Though she wishes like hell she could be one day
Wearing sundresses & drinking bourbon during an Indian summer

Till then she’ll stare into the sun
Close her eyes and disappear
Into a field of sunflowers

Happy Easter

Happy Easter

It’s been a good weekend. First, Friday night, a visit with one of my dearest friends, Heather, who turned 40 that day. Then, I drove up to La Mirada to spend the weekend at my parents’ house. On Saturday morning, Mom & I went to pick up Dad from Pacific Palms. :) We took him straight to dialysis. I wasn’t feeling well that day so I took a nap when we got back to the house for a couple hours. Then we went to Five Guys for a burger & some fries, then I went to get Dad from dialysis.

That night, I got Dad a meatball sub and Mom & I got Alberto’s. The evening was nice & mellow and I went to bed around 10:30 pm. This morning, Mom made waffles & sausage :) . I went to put gas in her car, then we watched basketball and some golf. Dad & I went outside for a bit, then lunch was ready. Mom made paella with pan con tomate and asparagus. It was delicious! And for dessert, flan! All very good. The home health nurse came and helped Dad out with his stuff. Overall, he was very good, maybe the best I’ve seen him in a while. It was good to see, and he was happy to be home.

Lulu is a sweet pup, although she has bouts of the crazies that are pretty funny. Around 3 pm, I drove back to San Diego. Tonight, Han & I will have a lasagna and watch some TV. Catch up on who won the Masters and talk about our weekends and the schedule ahead. Now for tonight’s words:

A Moveable Feast

“If you are lucky enough to have lived in Paris as a young man, then wherever you go for the rest of your life, it stays with you, for Paris is a moveable feast.” – Ernest Hemingway

I have never lived in Paris
nor been a young man
but my moveable feast is Spain,
in particular, the east coast, the Costa Brava

I remember sleeping in, walking to get a croissant,
then heading to the beach for the day, save for a
break for a late lunch, perhaps a siesta, then back
for more

floating in the Mediterranean, scared and thrilled by
what seemed to me like large waves, from making sand
castles to getting up the nerve to sunbathe topless,
Playa de Aro will always be a magical place

after the beach, I’d spend hours on the balcony
reading or just watching the people go by, on their
way to town. At night, when I was younger, I’d play
outside with the other kids until late, then when I got
older, I’d dress up to hit the discos with my cousins.

the food, the weather, the utter lack of responsibility
my memories have made these things perfection,
a place in my head that never disappoints, where I am
young, tan, and with my life in front of me

it’s been nearly, could it be, almost fifteen years since I’ve been back
there are children of my cousins I’ve never met
if I returned, would it match my memories -
probably not, but would it become another
moveable feast, something to think back on
fondly, new memories, new adventures
to dream, to dream

Opening Day

Opening Day

Okay, so it’s not a new poem, but it has to be done. Padres lost their home opener to the dastardly Dodgers, but baseball is back, and it was a joy to turn on the radio on the drive home to hear the Padres broadcasters telling the good news.

Opening Day

this is about baseball
it’s about cold beer & green grass
new bats & tailgate parties
it’s about common ground
between fathers & sons
who forge a relationship
with batting averages, RBI,
& Cy Young award winners
it’s an American obsession
it’s summertime
it’s Padres pride
it’s opening day

an epidemic sweeps through
corporate America
suits & ties in big office chairs
trade it in for choice seats
off the third base line
for peanuts…and hot dogs…
in the hot sun

this is about the church of baseball
where the proper prayers and
incantations can swell and
make us all believers
in a perfect bunt
a shot out of the park
(“somethin’ goin’ that fast oughta have a stewardess on it, don’cha think?”)
the double play to end the inning

“it’s a simple game” yet one
that evokes a poetic beauty
it’s the dirt, the clean white chalk,
every blade of grass,
soft leather of your favorite glove,
riding your bike to the diamond
where dreams can be true
in summer days & nights
where you pray not to suffer
the fate of the mighty mighty Casey
or the sad reality of a rainout

it’s an infectious joy from my sister to me
it’s opening day &
I believe in the church of baseball

missed one

missed one

Because I went to bed at 10 pm. Probably should have stayed home. The antibiotics or this infection took its toll on me yesterday. Cranky one minute, in tears the next. Side effects. Plus a strange lingering metallic taste, especially when I drink water.

Didn’t take any percocet when I went to bed, but I still had incredibly vivid dreams. Or maybe it was just one dream with plenty of non-sequiturs.

My mom said my dad would be coming home from the rehab facility this weekend. Yay!

Today, two poems:

The Dream

the car could jump and skid atop chain link fences
I sat on the window, touching tree trunks as we ‘drove’ past
the unknown driver shook hands with people below

in the room, there were candles and a small girl
she took my hand and suddenly we were running
fast, scary fast, I had to let go

at a reserve of some kind, in an auditorium where
you had to climb vertically to get to your seats
then you enter a maze

from the maze into an open park, the girl reappears
I don’t take her hand and she is off, a woman nearby
says I can meet up with her if I go down this other path

behind me a massive hawk swoops down to eat something
walking backwards, I take photos of the enormous bird who
is now following me

the woman asks if the little girl owns a dog because on the side
of the path lies a dying dog with blue eyes
before I can snap its photo to ask the girl, the hawk takes a nip at me
the woman says that he’s just playing

suddenly I’m no longer walking, but crab-walking, still backwards
and a woman out of nowhere sits on my left leg
surprisingly, I’m still able to crab-walk with her on me
a second woman sits on the first woman’s lap
and we begin singing “The Weight” by The Band

we arrive (somewhere) and the ladies leave and I realize
I no longer have my phone with the photos of the hawk
I go back in, climb the auditorium, go through the maze,
go out into the park, when a door opens behind me, and
there is Han holding my credit card asking if I’m ready to go

 

Thoughts on ‘Shoulda Been Jimi Savannah’ (after Patricia Smith’s poem)

jealous
how you weave your words, string them together
so they look intimidating, yet they are plain English

sad
how you must have disliked your mother, the way she
kept you down or at least tried to

inspired
how you occupy so much of your own verse, never feeling
sorry for yourself, but celebrating the you who you’ve become

reflective
how you, though I don’t know you personally, continue to
be in my life, illustrating, simply by being, that it can be done

 

NaPoWriMo # 5

NaPoWriMo # 5

today’s prompt:  name your poetry and describe it

Grace

she lives here with me
but she comes & goes as she pleases

never tells me where she’s going
never leaves a note

it’s typical that she’ll come in
just as I’m falling asleep

I catch glimpses of her sometimes
usually when there’s music

we used to be inseparable
I didn’t think she’d ever leave

now, daily happenings of my life
rarely interest her

but sometimes they do
and she’ll spend time with me

when that happens
I remember how good it feels

her company is like an avalanche of
warm towels out of the dryer

I could stay there all day

NaPoWriMo # 4

NaPoWriMo # 4

The prompt today at Read Write Poem was to write about something being inside-out. I was not feeling that at all. So instead I turned to my “Writer’s Book of Days” written by my lovely friend, Judy Reeves. It’s a wonderful book that has a different prompt for every day of the year. I’d thought about writing something on my own, I’ve had some ideas swirling since Seattle, but wasn’t sure where to start. Then, like serendipity, the prompt from Judy’s book was a perfect yet simple jumpstart: It was a rainy day.

“In my heart I hold your photograph
and the thought of you comes on like the feel
of the coming rains…”
- Bruce Cockburn

the morning was overcast
as we headed north on interstate 5
toward Marysville

it was the 2nd day of the year
and we were going to your father’s funeral

we were quiet
still processing all the emotions
that were handed to us
so suddenly

your iPod was on shuffle
when this song came on

something shifted in the air
as we both locked into the words
and wept
~~

a couple months later
we sat in a parking lot
in Austin

you were getting ready for a gig
that could really make something happen

we had time
having arrived early
to make sure
nothing went wrong

suddenly, here was this song again
and we both remembered
the last time we’d heard it

this time you pointed out a favorite line
about smoke sliding into a room
then fell quiet
and wept

NaPoWriMo # 3

NaPoWriMo # 3

prompt # 3: write about something that scares you

close

my mother likes where she lives
because she knows she could go
to downtown LA whenever she wants
because it’s not that far

she rarely goes to downtown LA
but that’s not the point
she just likes knowing she could
because it’s there

I have similar feelings
about the people I love
though it feels dangerous
like I’m setting myself up to lose

NaPoWriMo # 1 & # 2

NaPoWriMo # 1 & # 2

what I’m doing

prompt # 2: write a poem inspired by the acronym RWP

Catching Up

I woke to the sound of rain
and didn’t know where I was

last night, I slept through three alarms
though their different tones
slipped in and out of my thoughts

my rhythm’s off

I blame it on the time change
my recent trip to Texas
depth of my sleep
my blank dreams

maybe tonight, writing poems
will act like a lullaby
bring back a sense of measure

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prompt # 1 : construct a poem using the first five song titles that come up when you shuffle your iPod

for B

her relationship has ended
she readjusts her sunglasses to obscure
her tear-stained eye

desire wanes and flares
in ways she can’t decipher

the long way around a broken heart
makes her recall the red clay trail
at her grandmother’s house that led to the river
she’d always get dirty but
she knew she’d always get clean

maybe the occasional honky tonk man
will help soften the edges, too

she used to imagine the life she might have without him
now she’s living it the best she can

the songs:
The Long Way Around – Dixie Chicks
Tear Stained Eye – Son Volt
Desire –U2
Imagine – John Lennon
Honky Tonk Man – Hank Williams

goodbye NPM and Poem-in-Your-Pocket Day

goodbye NPM and Poem-in-Your-Pocket Day

Today is Poem in Your Pocket day. You have 30 poems from this blog alone to consider adding to your pocket today. I like some of the suggestions they provided to make poetry more public today:

In this age of mechanical and digital reproduction, it’s easy to carry a poem, share a poem, or start your own PIYP day event. Here are some ideas of how you might get involved:

  • Start a “poems for pockets” give-a-way in your school or workplace
  • Urge local businesses to offer discounts for those carrying poems
  • Post pocket-sized verses in public places
  • Handwrite some lines on the back of your business cards
  • Start a street team to pass out poems in your community
  • Distribute bookmarks with your favorite immortal lines
  • Add a poem to your email footer
  • Post a poem on your blog or social networking page
  • Project a poem on a wall, inside or out
  • Text a poem to friends
  • Share poetry. That’s all they ask. I’ve tried to do my part this month with my daily postings. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed them! I certainly had a fun time finding stuff to post, and of course, there are many others that I would have liked to add. Friends like Robt O’Sullivan Schleith or Daniel Weinshenker and classics like Edna St. Vincent Millay or Lorca. I encourage you to seek them out on your own.

    For the final poem this month, I chose this rather long piece, but one that I still find so fascinating. With wisps of nostalgia, sorrow, and hope, it seems a fitting way to wrap up. And it contains the phrase that is on this year’s National Poetry Month poster, something that I want to keep asking myself, to challenge myself and make life better.

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    The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock
    by T.S. Eliot

    S’io credessi che mia risposta fosse
    a persona che mai tornasse al mondo,

    questa fiamma staria senza pi scosse.
    Ma per ci che giammai di questo fondo
    non torn vivo alcun, s’i'odo il vero,
    senza tema d’infamia ti rispondo.

    Let us go then, you and I,
    When the evening is spread out against the sky
    Like a patient etherised upon a table;
    Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
    The muttering retreats
    Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels
    And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells:
    Streets that follow like a tedious argument
    Of insidious intent
    To lead you to an overwhelming question.
    Oh, do not ask, “What is it?”
    Let us go and make our visit.

    In the room the women come and go
    Talking of Michelangelo.

    The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the window-panes,
    The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the window-panes,
    Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening
    Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains,
    Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys,
    Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,
    And seeing that it was a soft October night,
    Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.
    And indeed there will be time
    For the yellow smoke that slides along the street
    Rubbing its back upon the window-panes;
    There will be time, there will be time
    To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet;
    There will be time to murder and create,
    And time for all the works and days of hands
    That lift and drop a question on your plate,
    Time for you and time for me,
    And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
    And for a hundred visions and revisions,
    Before the taking of a toast and tea.

    In the room the women come and go
    Talking of Michelangelo.

    And indeed there will be time
    To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?”
    Time to turn back and descend the stair,
    With a bald spot in the middle of my hair–
    (They will say: “How his hair is growing thin!”)
    My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin,
    My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin–
    (They will say: “But how his arms and legs are thin!”)
    Do I dare
    Disturb the universe?
    In a minute there is time
    For decisions and revisions which a minute win reverse.

    For I have known them all already, known them all–
    Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
    I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
    I know the voices dying with a dying fall
    Beneath the music from a farther room.
    So how should I presume?

    And I have known the eyes already, known them all–
    The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
    And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
    When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
    Then how should I begin
    To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
    And how should I presume?

    And I have known the arms already, known them all–
    Arms that are braceleted and white and bare
    (But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!)
    Is it perfume from a dress
    That makes me so digress?
    Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl.
    And should I then presume?
    And how should I begin?

    Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets
    And watched the smoke that rises from the pipes
    Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows?

    I should have been a pair of ragged claws
    Scuttling across the floors of silent seas…

    And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully!
    Smoothed by long fingers,
    Asleep … tired … or it malingers,
    Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me.
    Should I, after tea and cakes and ices,
    Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis?
    But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed,
    Though I have seen my head (grown slightly bald) brought in
    upon a platter,
    I am no prophet-and here’s no great matter;
    I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker,
    And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker,
    And in short, I was afraid.

    And would it have been worth it, after all,
    After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
    Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
    Would it have been worth while,
    To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
    To have squeezed the universe into a ball
    To roll it towards some overwhelming question,
    To say: “I am Lazarus, come from the dead,
    Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all”–
    If one, settling a pillow by her head,
    Should say: “That is not what I meant at all.
    That is not it, at all.”

    And would it have been worth it, after all,
    Would it have been worth while,
    After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets,
    After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along
    the floor–
    And this, and so much more?–
    It is impossible to say just what I mean!
    But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a
    screen:
    Would it have been worth while
    If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl,
    And turning toward the window, should say:
    “That is not it at all,
    That is not what I meant, at all.”

    No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be;
    Am an attendant lord, one that will do
    To swell a progress, start a scene or two,
    Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool
    Deferential, glad to be of use,
    Politic, cautious, and meticulous;
    Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse;
    At times, indeed, almost ridiculous–
    Almost, at times, the Fool.

    I grow old . . . I grow old . . .
    I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.

    Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
    I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
    I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.

    I do not think that they will sing to me.

    I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
    Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
    When the wind blows the water white and black.

    We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
    By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
    Till human voices wake us, and we drown.

    - from The Waste Land and Other Poems