NPM 28 & 29

My friend, Barbara, invited me to a songwriting group that she’s in. She’s in Austin, but the group “meets” on Facebook. The guy who started it posted 4 prompts, and people have 2 weeks to write, record, and upload their songs. She sent me the prompts in case I wanted to ‘audit’ the group. I…

one year gone

I couldn’t let this day pass by without acknowledging that it’s a sad anniversary. It’s been one whole year since my dad died. Even writing that sentence is weird. How can such an event be 365 days ago and yet feel so recent in my thoughts and memories, like it could have been yesterday. We…

Grief well

Today started out well. I got up early and went to get breakfast at Bondar’s. I chose to eat it there and read my book. Around 9:15 am, I left and took a walk through downtown. I really like downtown in the morning. Then I headed to acupuncture which was great. I felt very good…

devastating

Last night, there was another mass shooting. FUCK! This one happened at a bar & grill in Thousand Oaks CA where they were having college country night. A former Marine walked in and started shooting. The first policeman on scene was shot and died later of his wounds at the hospital. The shooter ended up killing…

Caught off guard

Facebook has a nice feature that shows a memory from the same day any number of years ago. It’s up to each user to share it or not. Today, my mom shared a photo from 13 years ago that took me quite by surprise and caught me completely off-guard. This sweet picture is of my…

10 months and other things

Today is 10 months since my dad died. 10 MONTHS! I get flashes of those last 2 ½ weeks, and I feel like there’s no way I can function. But I am starting to think about times before he was sick, and I cherish those memories, even the ones that are not so pleasant like…

Cambria (and NPM 26 of 30)

I’ve had a few days to process and distill my feelings from the recent judiciary hearings. But before I post about that, I’ll tell you about what I did last week. Oh, but wait, before that, let me give you an update from my last post. The unknown anomaly on my rear end has dissipated/disappeared,…

NPM – 25 of 30

My pal, Lindsay White, posts a monthly writing challenge. For June it was to write a poem where the total number of words match your age. So mine is 46. Workout #46 my sweat smells sour as I work to lose what I can only kindly describe as grief weight extreme heat presses around me…

NPM – 24 of 30

Caregiving when Dad was released from the hospital to come home for hospice they insisted that he constantly be on oxygen low, whirring concentrator in his room long green tubing before his trek to the living room each morning, then back again for naps and at night, he’d ask for the cannula to be removed…

NPM – 23 of 30

It’s been 5 months today since the day I describe below. ~~ “did he give you a good story for the day he died?” – “The Funeral” by Lindsay White when we could no longer lift him when it took four paramedics to get him back to the bedroom when he was barely able to…