it feels different

long post warning Before COVID-19 became part of our everyday energy, back in February, Ahmaud Arbery went for a jog in Georgia and was shot dead in the street by a citizen who claims he thought Arbery was a burglar. As the first stay-at-home orders were being considered, in mid-March, Breonna Taylor and her boyfriend…

NPM 21 / 30

It would have been my dad’s 80th birthday today. And also, Prince died 4 years ago. Feeling some things over here. ~~ This Thing Called Life Prince died on my father’s birthday April 21st so now, no matter what, they’ll always be linked not that my dad liked Prince’s music I doubt he could have…

NPM 14 / 30

A Year After Your Death I counted down the days until my plan could go into action a recalibration of my life I celebrated the release of my book new poems about you plus others from my past I was already grieving two friends when you made it a trio a deeper layer of sadness…

NPM 13 / 30

For Osi my sister put her dog down today she knew the day would come which doesn’t really prepare you how could it she and her son were with that sweet ol’ girl to send her on her way so now she’s at peace but there’s an Osi-sized hole in our hearts she really was…

National Poetry Month 4 / 30

I get behind sometimes. Deal with it. 🙂 Fear the Sneeze springtime brings new blossoms pollen attached to insects falls off, gets carried by wind disperses in air springtime brings sneezes it’s allergies I know but in this Unprecedented Time it’s seen as a threat pandemic brings paranoia it’s allergies, right? I scan my body…

two years gone

This day will never be easy. I will always think about that morning. That day. That new reality of life without my dad. This morning, I desperately tried to remember where I kept the grief journal I wrote last year, the one that I couldn’t even think until a year had gone by. Where was…

December reflections #1 – Through a window

It’s me. I follow this woman named Susannah Conway on Instagram and subscribe to her email newsletter. I’m not sure how I found her (through my sister?) but at the end of every year, she puts out a free workbook called Unravel Your Year that you can fill out to reflect on the year that’s…

NPM 28 & 29

My friend, Barbara, invited me to a songwriting group that she’s in. She’s in Austin, but the group “meets” on Facebook. The guy who started it posted 4 prompts, and people have 2 weeks to write, record, and upload their songs. She sent me the prompts in case I wanted to ‘audit’ the group. I…

one year gone

I couldn’t let this day pass by without acknowledging that it’s a sad anniversary. It’s been one whole year since my dad died. Even writing that sentence is weird. How can such an event be 365 days ago and yet feel so recent in my thoughts and memories, like it could have been yesterday. We…

Grief well

Today started out well. I got up early and went to get breakfast at Bondar’s. I chose to eat it there and read my book. Around 9:15 am, I left and took a walk through downtown. I really like downtown in the morning. Then I headed to acupuncture which was great. I felt very good…