it feels different

long post warning Before COVID-19 became part of our everyday energy, back in February, Ahmaud Arbery went for a jog in Georgia and was shot dead in the street by a citizen who claims he thought Arbery was a burglar. As the first stay-at-home orders were being considered, in mid-March, Breonna Taylor and her boyfriend…

April recap

Whew! I did 30/30 y’all! And I even did it in the allotted timeframe! I don’t know that that’s happened in quite a long time. Of course, by posting only poems mostly, you missed out on the other stuff I did, though, honestly, sometimes the poems were or described what I did. But here’s how…

pandemic roller coaster

hello fellow isolated humans! In the evening of March 19, the same day as my last post, the California governor issued a stay at home order for the state. Here’s what that means: Okay, so this information wasn’t necessarily new, but now it was mandated. Though there isn’t any law enforcement around the rules (yet),…

notes from a social distance

Greetings! As I said in my last post, not much has necessarily changed for me and my mom with the new mandates from the government to stay home as much as possible (especially older folks), or if you do have to go out to maintain a 6 ft distance from anyone, wash hands regularly, and…

February recap & our own real-life disaster movie

When last I wrote, a month ago(!), I caught you up through where we were at that time (mid-February), so I’ll catch you up since then and to where we’re at right now. Two great things happened in the last half of February: 1) my sister came to visit and 2) I went down to…

Global Mourning (NPM 27 of 30)

Global Mourning another shooting another fire another politician throws thoughts & prayers upon the pyre cold’s getting colder warm’s getter warmer will the shouting become a murmur or will the rage sustain until there’s a reformer I want to keep safe the people who are erased I want to be shelter for those who fear…

devastating

Last night, there was another mass shooting. FUCK! This one happened at a bar & grill in Thousand Oaks CA where they were having college country night. A former Marine walked in and started shooting. The first policeman on scene was shot and died later of his wounds at the hospital. The shooter ended up killing…

10 months and other things

Today is 10 months since my dad died. 10 MONTHS! I get flashes of those last 2 ½ weeks, and I feel like there’s no way I can function. But I am starting to think about times before he was sick, and I cherish those memories, even the ones that are not so pleasant like…

one good reason to have an intimate partner

I’m sure there is more than one reason, but in my last two solo years, I have been hard-pressed to identify a solid reason to share life with an intimate partner. Until earlier this week. I was in the shower doing what one does. In the process of soaping myself up, I felt what seemed…

2 Years & Cookies

Today marks my 2-year anniversary of moving into my awesome downtown apartment. Crazy to think about that passage of time – how I’ve become more myself (I think), how I’ve lost a bit of weight, how I’ve become (maybe too) comfortable on my own, how my family unit has shifted, and how I can sit…